I would love to be able to spill my guts here (disgusting as that visual is) but alas, I cannot. The thing about the Internet is that what you throw out there lasts forever. Words are too powerful to tossed around lightly.
So let’s just say my stomach is having a violent reaction to recent events, even if my mind and soul have found an ample amount of peace.
When you have to choke down your feelings– like some bit of rancid food that you are forced to swallow just to be polite– sometimes you can’t force it. The physical reaction can be more powerful the emotional and mental. And so I had a rough night.
But today is a brand new day. And as soon as my body catches up with the rest of me, I want my day back. I don’t want to lose another minute of my life to all the things I can’t say.