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I lost five pounds this week.
While I am happy about that, I am also a wee bit worried this is too much too fast.
This was a rough week. My emotions were all over the board, from depressed to anxious to irritable. I got a cortisone shot in my knee on Monday, so physical pain has diminished, but the emotional shit seemed to kick into overdrive.
Normally when my serotonin levels are doing fucking cartwheels like this, I soothe them with rich, delicious food and really good wine.
And that reflex hasn’t changed, since I had a dream this week about walking into Dairy Queen and ordering a half-size Peanut Buster Parfait (because I am on WW, yo.)
But because I am on Weight Watchers and because I want to develop new coping skills for my twirly-whirly emotions that doesn’t involve downing a bottle of wine and eating a vat of chocolate, I just didn’t eat very much.
Nothing sounded good except food that is really unhealthy, so I just went hungry.
That’s not a healthy way to drop pounds, and this is supposed to be about getting healthier.
So the focus this week is to eat plenty of healthy food and get some exercise to kick that serotonin in the ass. Also I will continue to find new coping skills, even if that means posting more cheesy 1980s music videos on my Facebook page.
Suffer with me, FB friends!
